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[protective_logic]

If you're hearing this message that means I'm not available at the moment.
So if you'd please leave your contact info and your message I'll get back to you at the first possible moment.
If there is a family related emergency, just keep trying until you get through.

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[protective_logic]

He just wants to protect me. My duty is the family. His duty is income and me apparently.

[shipitsupersonic]

Actually, he wanted to give me his number in case you got hit by a bus. And warn me about you. Apparently you're stone-cold ruthless and if I screw you over he's the least of my worries.

So...yeah.

Anyways, you deserve someone looking out for you.

[protective_logic]

I...

The number was considerate of him. But as we're not in a relationship, I see no need to warn you. Even if we were, I'm far from ruthless and I am the one that comes out of it hurt, so it's an empty threat. No, were there to be a way for you to screw me over and you did so, pain would rain down on you from a far different source. And you would regret it.

She's terrifying, this family friend, and I would suggest not robbing me, just so you know.

Omega... looks out for me. But he can't stop me from being hurt by the most obvious source. Myself.

[shipitsupersonic]

I wasn't planning on taking anything from you. That you didn't want to give.

But it's good you have people looking out for you.

[protective_logic]

Good. Because I don't have much to take anymore.

[shipitsupersonic]

You'd be surprised how much you have left to lose, though I don't intend to show you.

[protective_logic]

My family and my job. And you I guess.

That's all I have.

[shipitsupersonic]

That's more than I have.

[protective_logic]

Right. I... sorry. I forgot.

[shipitsupersonic]

I didn't mean to make you feel bad. Just...your life is not over because you and your boyfriend broke up.

[protective_logic]

I lost something I can never get back.

[shipitsupersonic]

But not everything.

[protective_logic]

Some days that doesn't feel true.

[shipitsupersonic]

Then I'll remind you. You can survive this. It's amazing what you can survive.

[protective_logic]

I hate being here, hurting like this.

[shipitsupersonic]

What can I do to help?

[protective_logic]

Nothing. I just... I miss that feeling you get when you know you're loved. But whatever.

[shipitsupersonic]

Your family loves you.

[protective_logic]

That's not the same. You get that, right? Familial love isn't the same.

[shipitsupersonic]

I've never known any other kind.

[protective_logic]

I have. And... I miss it.

[shipitsupersonic]

Is it true? That it's better to have it and lose it than never know it?

[protective_logic]

No. I could have lived my life and never known this pain. It's more consuming than the joy. The joy becomes your life. The pain as well. The pain eats me up inside.

[shipitsupersonic]

I'm sorry.

[protective_logic]

It's...

[A short, bitter laugh.]

I almost said it's okay. But it's not. It's terrible. And he's a fucking hypocrite. I can't think of someone who has more reason to believe in second chances than him, and look at him not giving one.

I'm sorry, I don't mean to put this on you. I will stop. Once this storm lets me free.