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[protective_logic]

If you're hearing this message that means I'm not available at the moment.
So if you'd please leave your contact info and your message I'll get back to you at the first possible moment.
If there is a family related emergency, just keep trying until you get through.

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Shouting

[protective_logic]

He won't talk to me and I don't even DESERVE for him to do so. So fuck the hell off if you won't get how ruined this is. Even if he WOULD take me back it would be a mistake to do so.

It's hardly fair for ANYONE to ask him to wait thirteen years for real commitment. He shouldn't be with someone who won't put him first, who won't love him like he should. You have no fucking clue!

Re: Shouting

[depthlesslock]

...Okay, in that sense, I don't.

Look, my point is that if you think the risks outweigh the protection, then keep on as you are. But if you want our protection and friendship, despite the risks, then that's different and we need to let people know. I'll help.

Maine specifically is a different issue.

[protective_logic]

Do whatever you want. Omega won't take any attempts you make to protect us seriously. Maine won't involve himself with anything I'm involved in. So whatever.

[depthlesslock]

Whether he takes them seriously or not doesn't affect them in the slightest. Except maybe their efficiency if he keeps spewing about them.

With Maine... You should at least try to be on better terms. I'm guessing friendship would be too painful? Even so, he deserves an explanation.

[protective_logic]

I explained it. Contact is over. It is better that I don't exist to him, cause him less pain.

[depthlesslock]

Did you break up with him because you considered him too high a risk?

[protective_logic]

All of you are. My family needs reduced threat levels from mercenary contacts. No one else will ever be willing to deal with that. I had to lose the thing I love most for them.

[depthlesslock]

So the risks outweigh the protection?

[protective_logic]

The math says so.

[depthlesslock]

What math?

[protective_logic]

High end risk factor calculations, such as are used in insurance premium determinations.

[depthlesslock]

Did you consider the benefit of our protection when doing these calculations? Or do a different calculation for it and compare the results?

[protective_logic]

I'm not doing new calculations. It's over.

[depthlesslock]

Okay, now that's just dumb. You went through all the trouble to make calculations to prove you were right, but now there's additional data that may sh-ange the results, you're not even going to try? Come on, D. You don't have to do the calculations, but at least think about it.

[protective_logic]

The calculations are pointless.

[depthlesslock]

Is that the ones you've already done, or just these?

[protective_logic]

York. Stop. Drop it. The past is in the past.

[depthlesslock]

I can't. You're hurting, Maine's hurting. This could be fixable, or at least make better-able... You know what I mean. I can't just let it go.

[protective_logic]

It can't be fixed. You'll save yourself grief by not trying.

[depthlesslock]

It might be able to be fixed. And I sure as hell know that I'll have a lot more grief over "what if"s if I don't try.

[protective_logic]

All you're doing is CAUSING grief.

[depthlesslock]

But there's a sh-ance that I might help make things better. How can I not take that sh-ance?

[protective_logic]

You're making it worse!

[depthlesslock]

I... Fuck, D, I'm trying to do the right thing. There has to be something.

[protective_logic]

There is nothing. And I'm tired of trying to explain that to you and Omega.