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[protective_logic]

If you're hearing this message that means I'm not available at the moment.
So if you'd please leave your contact info and your message I'll get back to you at the first possible moment.
If there is a family related emergency, just keep trying until you get through.

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[protective_logic]

[Sigh.]

Of course not.

[baruthumos]

Is he really worse than me? And at least this way she's not going behind our backs.

[protective_logic]

You don't laugh at me after you've accidentally or purposefully hurt me. You don't call Beta an asshole or a bitch. And when you accuse me of being broken, of lacking a sense of humor, of being 'pretty fucked up' because of Price, you say it because you're concerned or you're frustrated, or because you know how he hurt us BOTH. You don't do it because you're laughing your damn ass off.

So whatever you choose to do with that man, keep me out of it.

[baruthumos]

All I'm trying to do is make sure nobody thinks they have to lie to me about him, since apparently Theta and Epsilon think he's just the bees' knees.

[protective_logic]

Then they can have him.

[baruthumos]

And you won't have to hear about him at all. I'll take care of it.

Look, I tried, but sometimes you have to compromise to minimize the damage.

[protective_logic]

Compromise...

Trust me, I know what that is.

[baruthumos]

I know you know.

Sorry, I couldn't stop her.

[protective_logic]

You never had a chance, and I doubt you would have had it been discussed with you.

The only reason you don't like him is because of me, isn't it?

You've always wanted Alpha. You've always wanted him back and cared for him, and hoped for him. Please, don't let me hold you back from that.

[Better not to explain that the compromise he's thinking of doesn't have to do with their last few years, but a far more recent past.]

[baruthumos]

I sat in front of him for weeks without my helmet, and he never mentioned that he was also a member of the Weird Eyeball Club. And Beta wasn't out of the room five minutes before he made sure we all knew what he thought of you.

So yeah, I don't like him because of you. Because of what he said about you.

Wish there was something we didn't have to compromise.

[protective_logic]

Our lives are compromise. Our parents decided that for us.

[baruthumos]

Our parents never gave us that much thought.

[protective_logic]

And yet the decision is made.

[baruthumos]

...a specific decision? They didn't send another kid, did they?

[protective_logic]

I meant the not being here, not raising us, not putting it in our hands.

[baruthumos]

Something else bugging you, D?

[protective_logic]

Do you ever feel... trapped?

[baruthumos]

Trapped? No, I could leave whenever I wanted. Go to Zanzibar or wherever. Every day, I get to choose if I'm going to abandon you or not.

I'd rather be trapped.

[protective_logic]

You never do.

[baruthumos]

You feel trapped, though?

[protective_logic]

Sometimes. There... there are things out there I want. Want to be, want to experience, want to have time for. And I'm exhausted. I haven't had more than five hours of sleep a night since York went back to base.

[baruthumos]

What do you need me to do so you can sleep? Get the kids to school in the morning? The dishes? Both?

[protective_logic]

God, when the school year starts... Please. I know it's early, but if you set it up right you could go on your morning run right after and then go to Maine. I don't know how I'm going to sleep during the school year until York is handling language better.

I... I envy Sigma and Epsilon.

[baruthumos]

I will get them to school. Don't worry about it.

College would have been so much less painful than high school. I do too.

[protective_logic]

God... fuck high school.